What or Who do we turn to when we have a problem? We go to the ones closest to us, but what if they turn their backs on you? Maybe they get mad at you for you've told them. How do you cope with the things you feel that you just can't tell anyone or even say out loud when you're alone? Everyone has that one best friend that you can do just that with. I'm lucky enough to have that kind of best friend. Some of the things I've been told just break my heart. I have no idea what to tell them or do to help them but just sit and listen to what they are saying. Sometimes that's all you need, someone to just listen. Even though all the while I'm screaming on the inside! I just want to grab them and shake them, or hug them and just let them know I love them and would move heaven and hell for them. I just wish they could see and understand how important they are. When I think about it the saying "To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world." comes to mind. Now I know that I've had my fair share of Emo moments, but when my friends do it, it hits me hard. I've been there! I've been to that breaking point, where all you can think about is how to stop the pain you're feeling. When you're at that point all you want to do is stop it. You don't think about all the other lives this one decision YOU make will impact them. The reason why you don't think about that is because you feel you have NO ONE that will listen or help you.(Even though you really do.) There is always help, whether it's a family member, friend, doctor, there is ALWAYS someone for you to turn to. Now like I said I've been there a few times actually, so I am no saint and I'm not preaching by any means. There are still times when those fucked up thoughts creep back into my mind. What I'm trying to say I guess is PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE talk to someone but it goes too far and you reach that breaking point. Think of the people that will miss you most. They come in the most unexpected forms. IF YOU DO READ THIS KNOW I LOVE YOU! IF YOU EVER HURT YOURSELF, I WILL BRING YOU BACK AND KILL YOU AGAIN! No but seriously, you mean the world to me. When you tell me about things like that it kills me on the inside! I love you!
Shay
P.s.
I will blog again soon, hopefully I will find my funny again!
This situation just impacted me so deeply I had to write about it!
Sweet dreams loves!
Shay's Crazy Mundane Life
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