Twinkies? Oh Boy here we go!

There is a hurricane a blowing and just by knowing what you know, you have an advantage to the blind morons that surround you everyday. However not everyone can be saved. Ancient proverb: don't bother telling the TRUTH to your friend because he already knows and don't bother telling the TRUTH to your enemy because he won't believe you. Civilize those you can and fuck the rest. There are too many people in this world. It is not our responsibility to be constantly cleaning up after the weak-minded. Nature will eventually run its course and those too stupid to live will fortunately be crushed beneath the wheels of our progress. Assume your individuality. Culture can rob you of your uniqueness. That's how stereotypes exist, and not without reason. Anyone too wrapped up in the sheep mentality of their ethnicity can never truly express themselves as individuals. READ, Watch, LISTEN, DO what you want. BUT BE WARNED! You cannot have this freedom at no cost. You must pay in responsibility. If you listen to MARILYN MANSON and MURDER your FAMILY then you will go to jail. That's reality. If you decide to commit suicide for a song-SO LONG SUCKER! That kind of thinking has no place in our movement. Right now as a Family, as an Army we are limited as a minority. Laws bind us. But it is important to remember the law is only what is popular. Not whats right or wrong. Reject conventional morality and societal self-serving standards. When WE become the majority, we will decide who doesn't belong. As misanthropes and throw-away lods we will not submit to the mainstream. You will become it. And America should be very, very afraid. 

Ok, now that's out of my system. Let's continue! First off HOLY SHIT it's been forever since I wrote a blog. I went on a bit of a hiatus. I was lost, confused, and EXTREMELY far from who I am and who I used to be. I really need to find myself and start accepting myself for who I am. I needed to get back to not giving a flying fuck what people think of me. I'm still slightly lost and still trying to get ME back! It's a process and a very tough road, but I'll get there eventually! So that being said here's some things that have happened. (Some of which still has me reeling.) First thing, (I know I have blogged this already but I don't care I'm going to write about it again!) My beautiful aunt left this world and her passing left a HUGE hole in my heart. That woman meant the absolute world to me! She was the most loving,caring, giving, and non-judgmental person to ever walk this earth! I miss her and think about her literally everyday. I wish I could just see her and tell her I love her, what I would give to have just a few more minutes with her! She was my 2nd mother! I don't know I could go on forever about her...

Moving on, I started my own business and its proving to be a flop. I have also joined forces with the dark side (aka my twinky) This chick has come into my life and slapped it in the face! but in a great way! Ok a bit of a description of my heterosexual life mate we shall call Twinky. Twinky is EXACTLY like me it's almost scary! The difference though she says the shit I think and keep to myself out loud! HAHA another way to describe Twinky is if you have ever seen the movie Bridesmaids, the chick that takes a shit ton of puppies, and is just all around nuts, Yeah that's exactly like Twinky's personality and even some of the shit she says and does I swear to goddess the writers of that movie stole some of the lines from Twinky! Haha Which brings me to another thing! (Yeah I know you thought I was done babbling huh?) During my "hiatus" my mom and I have drifted so far apart it's sickening. I had become severely depressed not just from this but from other obvious reasons. My mom and I got into a HUGE scream-fest and at a point in said scream-fest my mom told me I was dead to her. This was 2 weeks after my Aunts passing. I lost it and grabbed one of my many assortment of knives and put it to my wrist. Now Twinky discovering this, threatened to beat the holy living shit out of me, IF I was ever so stupid again. "I'm life and sometimes I just bite you in the ass." "Yeah you see this I'm life and I'm kicking your ass, you have to fight back sometimes damn it!" That was some of the conversation between Twinky and I (I'll leave the visual up to you. HAHAHA) After that there were several other threats... Actually you know what I can't even call them threats, They were straight up promises! I love this girl like crazy, and I am so thankful to have her be a part of my life! 

I'm still boxing which is a good thing! I don't have my shit together but I'll get there eventually! I have my good days and bad days, but then again doesn't everybody? 

There has been just a flood of numerous things that have happened over the last couple months it's just crazy and it's seriously almost like a roller coaster of fucked up and hilarious. Halloween parties over the weekend were just crazy! It was an absolute blast! I'm paying for it today though, but if you think about it a hangover is just god's way of saying you kicked ass last night! OH OH OH funny comeback of the weekend; Twinky: I'm scary! Me: You can't scare me bitch, I'm little red riding hood! Twinky: Well I could be the big bad wolf, you never know! Me: That's ok you can eat me later! This was followed by Twinky and I laughing our asses off and her calling me a rotten bitch! It was fucking hilarious! 

Another thing to happen is, I am a probationary member of the Modified Dolls. If you don't know what or who they are look them up! Anyways I had a photo shoot with them for the calendar they are putting out. I met some really awesome girls and I'm really glad that I could be a part of it!

Last couple of things before I abruptly end this, as per usual. My friend/sister "B" and my cousin/sister "Rizzo" are both HUGE parts of my life also if it wasn't for both of them I would be so much more lost than I already am! I love you both SO much! and Thank you for being there for me!

Yeti don't you dare think I forgot about you either! If it wasn't for you I can honestly say I would not be here anymore! You are my escape and my slap in the face when I need it! Seriously without you 4 AMAZING people in my life I would not be able to handle anything that happens, whether it be Joy,sorrow or just that normal flood of crazy that happens every so often. Just thank you! and know that you mean the world to my crazy mixed up ass! I love you guys!

Until Next Time,

Shay's Crazy Mundane Life