Hey there guys
time for a new blog! So I can’t sleep at night ever! My mind goes a hundred
million miles a minute and there isn’t a damn thing I can do to stop it! I have
been going over different things in mind. I’m lost and don’t know how to find
myself anymore. I used to have so much fun and now I feel like I’m just walking
through life and with no purpose other than to just be. It feels like every
time I have a new ambition everyone is right there telling me I can’t do it, or
I shouldn’t do it, or it will never work and I’ll fail. I feel like not one person
supports me in anything I do and don’t bother to help me achieve the goals I
set. (Let’s face it; you can’t achieve your goals alone without some form of
help.) I just feel completely alone! I have aspirations to be a tattoo artist
and when want to tattoos I say I’ll do it (if it’s simple enough) they tell me
they will wait until I get a few more “under my belt”. Well let me ask you
this; How the hell am I supposed to get more tattooing experience when not one
person will let tattoo them?! Another aspiration was to have a band (had one
once and it fell through) No support there. Oh another to make clothes once
again you guessed it! no fucking support there. I feel like I just don’t
connect with my friends and family like I used to. I used to have so much fun
with my friends, going out and walking in the middle of the night just because
we were bored, laughing at the dumbest things, hell even “ghost hunting”! I
mean I understand we’re older now but still that shouldn’t stop us! Right!? I
don’t know, I know I’m stuck and just can’t get away from it. I don’t feel like
I have things in common with my friends anymore. Nobody likes do the things that
interest me. When I suggest doing something of my interest, I get looked at
funny or I get called weird, or I get just a flat no. I’m sick of feeling like
I have to fight to get myself back! I just want to be me again and have the
support and understanding that I used to! Okay, Now that’s somewhat out of my
system let’s move on.
Dead chicks? Ha-ha Why yes dead chicks, I
entered a contest to be the face of DEADCHICKSARECOOL I had to enter a picture
of myself and the photo with the most comments by August 21st? (Can’t
remember the final day.) Wins $1000.00, All expense trip to New York, and they
will be the face of the company’s website. So I have been spamming the link on Facebook.
Trying to get everyone I know to go comment on my picture and vote me!Dead Chicks Are Cool! Vote for me! Just leave a comment and boom that's your vote!
Now I probably
won’t post a blog for a while (What else is new right?) unless something comes
up that I feel I want to bitch about or jumble out, out of shear excitedness
lol.
Until Next
Time,
Shay’s Crazy
Mundan+e Lif+e
